Yesterday I was dragging a fallen tree off our stone wall to use for firewood when I noticed something unusual. Jasper was grunting and sceeching, wanting to point out the large mushrooms glued to the bottom of the trunk, and I bent down to confirm with him. I noticed they were artist conchs and touched their smooth white underside. I found a hunk of white gold hair stuck to it, and when I held in my hands I sucked in my breath. I felt sure it was my lost kitty, bubba’s. I wondered if he was there when it all went down? Or if that had just been a resting place in the sun one day before he met his match. I searched around the area a bit for any other clues but I didn’t find any.
I search when we are on a milk walk. I search when we are wandering the woods. I hate not knowing what happened to him.
We had a little ceremony for him last saturday, right before Lee left for a big long trip. It was short and sweet. We placed a gravestone by out hammock so we could hang out in the sun with him. We said a few words about his sweet demeanor. And about how he has been there to welcome all our babies. Then we turned to walk away. As we did, the very first snowflakes fell. They kissed our cheeks and eyelids and we sighed in relief.
I brought in the last bouquet of cosmos before the hard frost came and sucked the color out of them. We piled our basement full of squash and onions and carrots. We planted our garlic. We stacked more wood. We have begun to have a fire in our wood stove pretty regularly now too. It feels good to all be cozied up together, and I can’t help it, whenever the moment is just so, I look around and I forget my sweet, fat cat is gone. He loved the wood stove. He would practically bake beneath it.
RIP Chief Conanicus aka “bubba” February 14, 2006-September 27, 2015
You were the coziest thing I have known. I miss you so, so much. Until we meet again!
6 thoughts on “saying goodbye”
Sniff. A very touching post. How wonderful that you have all of those pictures of him.
RIP Bubba, you were the reason I new Lee was the man for my girl.
I’m so very sorry for your loss. What a sweet fur baby. Your photos are wonderful. xo
So sorry about your cat. I love my cats and it’s heartbreaking to lose them….. peace be to you as you grieve…
I’m so sorry about the loss of your cat. He was so beautiful. Our cat Mr. Bigglesworth ran away 3 weeks ago after we moved into our new house. He’s still missing and so is a piece of my heart. The not knowing definitely is the hardest part. I’m not giving up hope. There was a possible sighting of him recently so I have to keep looking and believing. I hope all is well with you. Haven’t seen new posts for a while. Happy holiday season to you all!! : )
thanks wendy:) I had a camera problem. Well I still do. And it was just the excuse I needed to take a break. I am feeling inspired again and will pick up the pace as soon as I get a picture taking device:)) And I am sorry about Mr. Bigglesworth. It is so hard to lose a pet. I wont give up hope for you either. I look for my Bubba all the time. I can’t seem to stop.